Am I Julia Roberts in "Runaway Bride"? I have the freedom to be anybody I want to be but, in the immortal words of Janis Joplin, "Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose".
Twelve months ago, the life I had and was happy with disintegrated and I've been to hell and back and am now in the re-building phase. As I was talking to my psychologist yesterday (thank God for her or there wouldn't be much re-building happening - there would only be crumbled foundations!) it occurred to me that my life is somewhat of a chiche. I found myself saying things like, "I am a kinder and more compassionate person now", "Time helps heal", "Need to find the passion", "Life is too short", etc. etc. I sounded like a self-help book.
Back to Julia Roberts in "Runaway Bride" ... I am on a journey to find out how I like my eggs.
Up to now I've often gone along with my partner's passion and now I need to re-kindle my own likes and interests. As yet, I've not tried sky-diving or bungee jumping - who knows, that could end up on my list.
I did go back boogie boarding recently and it was fantastic. There is boogie-boarding after breast cancer which is good so that is definitely something I will continue to pursue. My kayak finally hit water so that's another pursuit I shall continue with. In fact, we are talking about an all-girl's camping and kayaking trip which could be interesting. I shall keep you informed on how that pans out. I have a swag so I don't need to pitch a tent but I have a feeling we could end up in luxury cabins by a dam somewhere sipping champagne on the verandah as the sun goes down. Actually, the latter sounds a little more how I like me eggs...
I am going to be joining a Lions Club which I'm looking forward to getting involved with. It will be nice to do some fund-raising and helping out in the community. It's been years since I've done that and it was always something I loved to do when I was in my twenties. I had so much support from people when I was undergoing treatment that I want to be able to "give something back" and I think this will help me to do that.
So, things are slowly moving on for me and this next year is all about finding Debra. I've no doubt there will be some pitfalls along the way but, as the saying goes, "Life is about the journey, not the destination".
So many sayings and cliches and so little time.
Twelve months ago, the life I had and was happy with disintegrated and I've been to hell and back and am now in the re-building phase. As I was talking to my psychologist yesterday (thank God for her or there wouldn't be much re-building happening - there would only be crumbled foundations!) it occurred to me that my life is somewhat of a chiche. I found myself saying things like, "I am a kinder and more compassionate person now", "Time helps heal", "Need to find the passion", "Life is too short", etc. etc. I sounded like a self-help book.
Back to Julia Roberts in "Runaway Bride" ... I am on a journey to find out how I like my eggs.
Up to now I've often gone along with my partner's passion and now I need to re-kindle my own likes and interests. As yet, I've not tried sky-diving or bungee jumping - who knows, that could end up on my list.
I did go back boogie boarding recently and it was fantastic. There is boogie-boarding after breast cancer which is good so that is definitely something I will continue to pursue. My kayak finally hit water so that's another pursuit I shall continue with. In fact, we are talking about an all-girl's camping and kayaking trip which could be interesting. I shall keep you informed on how that pans out. I have a swag so I don't need to pitch a tent but I have a feeling we could end up in luxury cabins by a dam somewhere sipping champagne on the verandah as the sun goes down. Actually, the latter sounds a little more how I like me eggs...
I am going to be joining a Lions Club which I'm looking forward to getting involved with. It will be nice to do some fund-raising and helping out in the community. It's been years since I've done that and it was always something I loved to do when I was in my twenties. I had so much support from people when I was undergoing treatment that I want to be able to "give something back" and I think this will help me to do that.
So, things are slowly moving on for me and this next year is all about finding Debra. I've no doubt there will be some pitfalls along the way but, as the saying goes, "Life is about the journey, not the destination".
So many sayings and cliches and so little time.
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